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Well, honestly....
Apr. 13th, 2009 10:45 pmSo, no more good things. In fact, it's been almost exactly a month since I last even checked here, told you I couldn't even remember I have this. I don't know why, 'cause I actually like the look rather.
Of course, I might just have the excuse of being depressed. Not that I know that I'm depressed, or even believe that I am, but a friend of mine said that I seemed sad this semester. Don't know where it came from, but it would make sense I suppose. Junior year (high school), I was definitely depressed. Jump in front of a bus depressed. Well, not really. I mean I wanted to, also thought about falling off cliffs or running the car of the road, but I never would have actually done so. But apparently it still counts.
Just my personality really. I don't like change, so I freak out in preparation of it, which I suppose is rather better than freaking out during the change. Currently, I'm a semester before I actually graduate and have to move out and find a career and have to do all that stuff. Probably have to move beginning of June too, not to mention find a job in this economy (this county has a 13% unemployment rate, before Gottschalks goes out of business). Generally very stressful these days.
Not to mention that the friend previously mentioned as well as about 80% percent of my current friends are graduating and moving away this semester. I've never been very good at making friends, and have no idea of how I managed to make this many in the first place, so I suppose you could say I'm losing most of my support system.
Wish me luck. I don't think I'll need, I've always managed to land on my feet so far, but making it through this stress without entirely losing it would be nice :)
Of course, I might just have the excuse of being depressed. Not that I know that I'm depressed, or even believe that I am, but a friend of mine said that I seemed sad this semester. Don't know where it came from, but it would make sense I suppose. Junior year (high school), I was definitely depressed. Jump in front of a bus depressed. Well, not really. I mean I wanted to, also thought about falling off cliffs or running the car of the road, but I never would have actually done so. But apparently it still counts.
Just my personality really. I don't like change, so I freak out in preparation of it, which I suppose is rather better than freaking out during the change. Currently, I'm a semester before I actually graduate and have to move out and find a career and have to do all that stuff. Probably have to move beginning of June too, not to mention find a job in this economy (this county has a 13% unemployment rate, before Gottschalks goes out of business). Generally very stressful these days.
Not to mention that the friend previously mentioned as well as about 80% percent of my current friends are graduating and moving away this semester. I've never been very good at making friends, and have no idea of how I managed to make this many in the first place, so I suppose you could say I'm losing most of my support system.
Wish me luck. I don't think I'll need, I've always managed to land on my feet so far, but making it through this stress without entirely losing it would be nice :)
